I know I know, everyone says get another job, but its really not that easy. First off everyone says that the economy is back, in some way its not. I can't afford to take a job that pays less than what I make now. I'm full time and living pay check to pay check. Second I am looking at jobs in Illinois which pays better, and I'm trying to stick with the nursing field I'm in, since I know what I'm doing.

The problem has been where I work at is what I call a sinking ship, or a runaway train. Ever since they forced one of my 4 supervisors into another dept, my director has no idea how to run her dept. There was a time where maybe two people were doing their jobs, although it wasnt their entire jobs, but they were doing it at least. One day my boss flips out and cries in a inservice and I never seen so many people cleaning stuff in my career there. About that time she tried to fire me after a part timer claimed that I was harassing her and got her cornered or jumped in a elevator by some thug nurses. If anyone here knows me in real life and many of you do, you know I'm not that type of person. I feel that was someone who was scared, and hated her job, and another co worker who dosent like me took advantage of that. I got to keep my job, but I felt like I knew was on my way out and I didnt feel trusted. 2012 Was so bad the turnover hit a all time low, and they made a inservice for just my dept in the classroom so other depts can see and everyone pointing and looking at me.

Flash forward to March of this year. After many deaths in my co workers family there was a moment of peace for once. But one day a rather loose cannon co worker I guess decided not to take her medicine and argued with anyone not in her clique including me. I took it upon myself to call my director because it was spilling outside and into my residents. My residents are always first. And the fact that she called them "mother fuckers" and made my c.n.a I was working with cry took the icing on the cake. After many meetings with co workers she got a stern talking to, and I hoped it was over. It wasnt. Although she quit for a time being, management as always hates this department singled us out and banned us from taking our breaks in the parking lot, and using the dock, although laundry and c.n.a's can do whatever. This was in hopes of curbing stealing that was going on in the big freezer. Yes I have seen stealing going on in the years I have been there, but I just kept my nose out of it since it didnt effect my job at the time, or a resident. Apparently it moved to the milk cooler, and a midnight nurse was caught and whatever happened to her I don't know. So my boss got the bright idea of locking stuff at 6:15 while I'm still there. I don't leave until almost 9 at night. So if a resident needs orange juice for a reaction they are s.o.l. and their RN needs to speak with my boss the next morning. So what happens if that resident is dead? So after much fighting I got to keep some fridges open, but they are only for OJ, and nothing else. So the State of Indiana makes us have inservices downstairs about customer service, and residents rights, and hypocrites are giving it? They live there, and they pay for their service, they should be able to get it. It aint about how much is gone!

So at the end of April most of my dept wore orange to symbolize unity, and to look like we are in prison after we heard rumors of 1 bathroom break a day (this was on a dress down day). 3 people who don't really have any friends in the dept wore their usual scrubs, And as we came in on or off hours to pick up paychecks, and to go to another meeting about said idiot above, people noticed. People kept asking why we had orange on, I gave a different excuse everytime, like the store had a big sale on orange shirts. I guess assistant administrator got scared and called the union, and out she comes. She told us if we are going to do this to make sure all co workers know about this, because three had purple on. To tell our boss, and other depts so they may join in on the fun too. Like that really makes a point. Of course our big dope of a administrator loved it.

Soon another fight would start this being a race war. This isnt the first race war, as I got caught in the first one in January 2012, but it blew over. But one day a white co worker got on FB, and without using names said how these people dont care about residents or anything by putting dirty lids on trays that the residents are about to eat off of. The next day one of the many two faced people showed our loose cannon the status, and she shouted she hates white people! This being heard by my boss who is white promptly suspended her. And this became the start of a new and bigger race war, whites and mexicans vs some blacks...my ass! Many saying that people who were friends with whites were all in a sudden on the racist's side. And people stopped talking, acting like 4th or 5th graders. Me being the friendly person I am was trying to see over this and not getting involved by trying to work with everyone. The racist was suspended for a week, not her first this year btw, but she was brought back after the entire dept was brought into the assistant administrator's office.

The racist I was trying to give the benefact of the doubt, since she just lost her sister, and another just had a heart attack at the same time. So I thought she got her punishment by being suspended without pay, and now she can think about this. So she comes back and my bosses get the great idea of bribing us to get along with a $5 Wendys gift card. So we have to write something on a piece of paper that says something nice about your co worker and bosses. I was the first to turn it in, because I'm not gonna turn down free food lol, but some co workers couldnt even do that, we're in 5th grade right? And said racist idiot comes back rather scared, but not for long.

So now its this past Friday, I'm doing a job I used to love, but now hate due to trigger finger, and I have to work near her, or under her. Shes just itching to say something to me, but dosent. On the line I have to stand next to her and shes eyeballing me the whole time, and I'm not speaking because I don't feel good, and I got some bad news on something that happened to my father almost getting killed. She in her mind must think I want to start something, but I don't. This on the "employee cookout" day where employee of this "wonderful place" get to eat dinner. I missed the lunch so me and two friends will go to the later one. So one asks me when I'm going and I said when I'm done with my stuff. This stupid idiot thinks I'm talking to her or about her calls me a smart ass, and a asshole while mumbling, I didnt hear her too well, but one of my friends did. The next day I tell my boss what happened with my Dad, and I'm afraid I might snap at this idiot because of all the stress I have. So she calls my friend, and the racist into the office, and promptly suspends me and her. What did I do?

After hours of trying to relax I start getting phone calls and texts from nosey co workers wanting to know what happened, they arent going to know unless they read this and afaik no one knows about my life here, and I dont care anymore. I ended up with a extended vacation because my real vacation starts tomorrow, and I still have to show up to that place to give a statement. I hope I'm not denied A union steward this time, I pay for them once a month for what? Now I come back on Memorial day which is a paid holiday that I won't see because I wasnt there today because of my suspension. WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT!

I can't wait to hear the phone ringing with a job offer from Illinois!